in many ways.
all signs point to-----> lonesomeohioblog.
a new look that's old, i'm going to try to get the kinks out and build upon this template. i thought maybe i needed a new look that really looks old. anyways, i hope to have some more photos and thoughts on here regularly. i figure i've got time on my hands and lots of things going through my head. might as well. how are you guys?
I arrived at Cleveland Hopkins airport at what my phone first thought was 8:38 but quickly flicker'd to 11:38. I felt like I was time traveling. It was a long day started at 4 am in Eugene, then a little wait in Portland (with free wireless!) then a longer layover in Vegas (with free wireless again!). So I got in late and was met by my mom who brought some god food and a warm car. IT's been good so far, I look forward to seeing friends and family.
In the early, early morning at 5am i begin my first journey back to the midwest after being gone for almost 6 months. This is surely my longest stretch without going home. It's been rough, it's been sad and it's been good. All in all, it's a growing experience. Still hard to tell whether I fel bad about it or if I feel I've made some progress. That part probably comes when you walk through your mom's door again. I can safely say that all the bullshit (for lack of a better term) that has always surrounded going back home for holidays has been lifted. I am not dreading it, I look forward to it. There's been a filtering of what's important and what's not. There are so many people that I want to spend time with. I can't wait.
i've always kind of considered every day to be a near death experience. i mean, not to 1. think i'm some philosopher or 2. be overly morose but really every day we are fighting gravity just to stand up, so the fact that we can manage through a day without a meteor hitting us or something should be considered amazing. i think that it is good to stop and realize these things occasionally. it's easy to get caught up in complaining and consuming and everything else that comes along with being a modern human being. we don't get chased by animals or come close to hypothermia on a regular basis like our ancestors. so i am thankful that i got some perspective smacked into me when i hit the front of a honda accord last night and then the wet pavement of franklin boulevard. i spent an entire year riding like an idiot in a way more populated city. for some reason this didn't happen to me until i came out here. a new place. all alone. a place where i've been trying to gain perspective and that event really made that perspective hit home (parden the pun).i'm glad i was wearing a helmet.
